Friday, February 17, 2012

Elastic Pants

I am fat. I know, it's politically incorrect to say that. But even if we use different words like "large, obese, or big boned" it means the same thing, there is too much fat in the body - FAT. Besides constantly second guessing my abilities as a good wife and mother, being fat is a very painful subject for me.

I never wanted to be fat. In fact I have the frame to be skinny but curvy. Up until a few years before I had children I was really thin. I can't say I didn't choose it because each time I decided not to be active, overeat, or eat the wrong thing I was kinda making that choice. I wasn't considering the youthful functions of my body would morph one day. If I had thought this I could have taken precautionary actions. Through the years excuses came, especially the birth of my twins. Granted, they did make it to 38 weeks and were 7 lbs, 7 oz. each, but I can't keep relying on that. What happens when they turn 18 and I'm still blaming their birth? I think Satan wants us to ride our excuses as far as we can take them. And, it's amazing how far we can. We delude ourselves that we are the excuses' prisoner and we can't possibly overpower them.

Now, I understand people aren't made up the same way so few of us are going to look like the woman the advertisements tell us we should look like, and I realize some people have health issues. I also realize we're not all meant to be marathon runners or even gym people. But, we should work to care for the body God gave us with whatever means and ability available to us. It's the only vessel we get to ride throughout our life and I'd like to keep it running as long as possible. Taking care of our bodies pays tribute to the creator's beautiful, complex work of art.

I think I've finally arrived at that point it becomes about health, not vanity; tribute to God, not myself. And, it seems possible now because not only do I recognize the hold but I am taking my power from Satan back and relinquishing it to God. This applies to any vice. I've joined weight watchers and going to become a walking fool. Who's with me?

"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body."1 Corinthians 6:19-20

"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." 1 John 4:4

2 comments:

  1. me, I am with and miss you and I love the beautiful person you are

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  2. Weight Watchers is the wonderdul way to go and i will pra that you can stick with it if that is what you want to do. i have found in my long life that any addiction be it food (which i have also) or cigarettes which i had for years and years, no one but you can do it. Everyone had told me time and time again about how bad cigarettes were. I knew that. About how expensive I knew that. About how stinky I knew that. IN fact i knew it better than anyone. i just decided one day it was too much trouble. for six months if you had said you have 2 weeks to live i would have told you wait a moment and we can talk about this as soon as i get a pack of cigarettes. Now I find it hard to remember that I smoked for over 40 years. Unfortunately even though i was always a good size up until i hit 65 when i started gaining, i haven't decided to cut down to any appreciable level. So i will pray that you make your goal whatever it is in life. I miss seeing you.

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