Wednesday, February 15, 2012

The Evolution of a Heart

Last Wednesday was the first of my posts about the book I'm currently working on. It's called The Evolution of a Heart. I figure I'll update everyone on my progress each Wednesday. For the synopsis of it click here.

This is my first book. I have always enjoyed writing. When I was younger it was the only tangible thing I had; the ability to write exactly what I was feeling. That was my freedom. I've written poetry and even read it at coffee houses when I first married. After children I let it go and after the pain of my past subsided the words wouldn't come anymore. Now I hone my skill without the weight of pain and what little I have is shedding with the writing of this novel.

As of this writing I am at 46,000 words. I hope to make it to 100,000 and have even settled for 75,000. I have justified this smaller amount because I want to attach discussion questions or a bible study to the back of it. Really though, I guess a story is finished simply when the story is all told. 

This journey was prompted by letters believe it or not. My husband and I received very toxic, misinformed letters from someone attacking my actions as a wife and mother. I decided if someone in this world had that intense of negative feelings towards me it deserved being looked into. So I started to analyze my life, then and now, and the concept of this novel was born. It has been painful and cathartic. I've hated myself, been embarrassed of myself, and have felt pity and love for myself. It has gave me clarity. It has made me realize the person who attacked me doesn't know me at all and even if there were bits of truth in the letters there wasn't much. But, if I had not received those letters I don't think this story or this blog would have been written. 

God loves me. And He loves you too. He decided to love you and I before we befuddled anything. He loves us through the mess and when we come out of it. He loves us when we do it again. He doesn't attack, but loves. He doesn't judge because He sees you and I differently than we see ourselves and each other. He sees us as he created us. He sees us perfect.

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.


  1. You shouldn't feel bad if your book doesn't reach 100k. At Tate we recommend our books stay under 80k, and most of our Bible study type books are around 45-60k. And at the end of the day it's not about how many words you use, it's about using the right ones. Best of luck to you as you complete this journey, and congratulations on coming so far already.

  2. So happy to hear the book is progressing so nicely... and you along with it! Lots of prayers as you near the final leg of this journey, I know it is going to be a success!